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Sunday, April 24, 2011

#12/30 "Barbecue Lolita"

Where is she?
You bring her out here
butt-naked,
the cellulite-less and
marinated ingénue,
that overgrown Lolita;
bring her out to this sour lawn
lit goldenrod under the weary sun,
fastidiously groomed, her
beef-hunk edges glistening
before our barbecue.

Assure her of the red-blooded
American instincts
and earnestness that drive us
over these trailer-rusted prairies
to find necks
and pairs of knees
like hers.

Though ravenous,
we hope she’ll unfold glossy
like a magazine, butterflied
into many thin filets upon our laps;
she could also cleave apart like
mica: insulation for our impulses.

Perhaps we seem
extravagant.
If she trembles,
clinging to her roll top desk,
just bring her
neat and tender.
Damn gloss if she isn’t soft:
our teeth have rotted on the road
and none of us is ready
for a filthy, fighting meal.

No, don’t tell us about
sisters, or a mother. We’re here
for the particular marble in
her skin, the mercury run of
her blood, those knees
and that neck’s submission.

She says she’s lost
her patriotic instinct?
Nonsense. We’ve got it right
here, in the back of the van
and heel of my boot,
in the buckles at our waists
and under each man’s fingernails.
We’ve got it to spare
and spread
over her like butter
before we pop her
on that grill.

Enough. We’ve starved
on this lawn too long.
We won’t wait. Dismantle her
and slap her roadmap veins
splayed continental under
that cloud-cover skin
into our palms.

We’ll chart
our own
path home.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

#6/30 "Geumgang"

Air breathes easy off the gold river.
Dusted mountains hulk indifferent to us
fools in the valley below, killing
time at a rest stop on stilts
bestride a riverbank.

Cheerful enough,
an ajumma hums a wordless tune.
Her plastic tent and lawn chairs,
red-bitten-pink, sport Coke ads and
that dignity acquired in bald thrift.

She slaps the tent flap open,
swats hair (dyed black and permed tight
in the patriotic style of women her age)
from her forehead with a hand
like a brown spade.

Curious and cityslick,
biology animates me like a child.
I kneel before her tank of uninteresting fish
whispering “hello, pretty,”
to their gapemouthed, stupid faces.

Humming still, our proprietress gathers
baskets and a net. A small, sharp knife
flashes in her spade. It gleams an ode
to brute utility. She corners her catch:
three fat fluorescent Yellows
and a slippery, darting Black.

She lays the first electric Yellow
on a wooden plank.
Her indelicate but practiced spade
slices two rough cuts and takes
a wide triangle from the fish’s belly.

Guileless, I stand transfixed
before the pastoral carnage.

The fish flaps. Digging, she scrapes
wet organs from the gaping wound. Again,
and again; the disembowelment
of Yellows is inexact; half
a ruptured heart left in one,
much billowing white intestine in another.

Black puts up a fight.
In a gesture nearly sweet, the ajumma
slaps it weakly on the head
with the handle of the knife.
No luck. Un-stunned, it’s likewise gutted
and thrown into the basket

From a hose at her feet,
she rinses the blade
before her hands.

Passed under water,
the eviscerated fish
heave for a last wet breath.
I wonder at this organless lost cause.

She tips the basket into a metal pan and
fills it with scalding broth.
One fat Yellow squirms in vivid agony.
She clucks at it once as if to say,
“Be still now, empty thing.
Die as you are meant to.”

When the pan quiets,
she takes up her song again.

Friday, April 1, 2011

#1/30: "Denial on the Dock"

30 poems in 30 days? Fantastic. Let's do it. Here's #1.




Mama with your fancy heart
full of wedding rings,
let go of them red balloons
and take me to the circus.
I want to watch a fantasy be
honest about itself.
Imagine that tightrope,
perfect under paid feet instead of
trembling in your poor throat,
forever calling across the water
to a ship not coming in.

Mama I am tired of this dirty dock,
tired of the way you say the fish
won’t smell tomorrow but every day
is the same, salt-burning sun
driving your welcome balloons
a little lower, that ship never
coming any closer and fish
one after the other lain
gutted on the wood to stink
like they have to, because that
is what men do to fish; make them stink.

At the circus I hear they have a silk tent
wide enough for everyone.
Forget your diet, let me buy you one of those
popcorns big as your head.
We’ll throw some at the lions
to prove we aren’t scared.
Laugh with me, Mama,
at the clowns and tumblers falling
head over heals for their buck.
Better at them than us, still waiting
for fish to stop stinking in the sun.